Recall a time when learning or writing seemed difficult.

 July 4, 2025

Week 7

Journal begin July 3, 2025. 10:00pm

I remember a time when writing felt impossible. It was Thursday night, after 10 p.m., and I had to turn in an essay the next morning. I told myself I wouldn't wait until the last minute again, but there I was, in front of a blank screen at my desk, feeling completely beaten.

The clock and the soft hum of my computer were the only sounds in my room. I had all my notes in front of me, along with a rough plan written in my notebook. I even had a cold tea that I had forgotten to drink. I told myself over and over, "Just start." Write anything. But every time I tried, I lost it. It didn't sound right. It felt like I couldn't put together my ideas like a big puzzle.

I thought the flashing pointer in the middle of the white screen was making fun of me. I was getting more and more angry as I looked at it. I began to doubt myself. Why was this so hard? Why is it so easy for everyone else? My hands were frozen over the keys. I wasn't just having trouble writing, it felt like my brain had shut down totally.

I almost cried. I was worn out, stressed, and stressed out. I even thought for a moment about giving up and going to bed without finishing it. But then I remembered what my teacher had said that "Good writing doesn't come from inspiration, it comes from trying even when it's hard."

So I did something easy. I turned off the bright roof light and turned on a small lamp instead. I closed my eyes, sat back, and took a deep breath. Just write one line, I told myself. I didn't have to write a great paper. That's it. One word.

Yes, I did. Then another. In a slow, honest way, the thoughts started to come to me. It was real, but it wasn't easy. But by midnight, I had something I was proud of. Not because it was the best thing ever written, but because I had started, which was the hardest part.

That event taught me something important, now that I think about it. It's not always easy to learn, especially when it comes to writing. It can be stressful, messy, and frustrating at times. But it's important not to give up. It only takes one line to make a big difference. And the hardest times aren't always the ones that make you grow the most.

Journal end July 4, 2025. 01:05am